A Malaysians' Dream

There is a dream deep in all Malaysian heart. The dream, before Merdeka (independence), is once very enthusiastic that everyone sees it coming true until certain party threaten the public that if we live equally as Malaysian, a certain race is going to demolish. Malaysian is so frighten that this propaganda is true that we give up our dream.

As time goes by, the dream becomes so fragile that Malaysian can only whisper it. Anything more than that will bring jail, threat, death. Everyone is so afraid to even whisper it. Then along came a motherly-like advertisement and film director. She puts the Malaysian dream on every television and cinema in Malaysia, despite the threat, unrecognisable, and hatred. Her works show Malaysians that our dream, which is almost drown in the deepest corner of our heart, is very much alive. Love stories of our next generation will be destroy and brought to a sad ending if we drown our dream, our deepest need.

Now, she is gone. To me, she had gone too soon. The good news is the Malaysian dream has started to bloom a little here and there. Imagine Malaysians regardless the colour of our skin, share our cultures, thought, understand each festivals, criticize people base on individual (not race), and a country that do not divide her prosperity because it is always big enough for all. This is the Malaysian dream, and the late Yasmin Ahmad reminded us with her work. I will remember her, as Mother of Malaysia.

(Her movie "Talentime" (right) is my favourite that I think all Malaysian should watch. There is where all our talent is. And the song "I Go" by Pete Teo is heart-brokening.)

Forecast Result for Teoh’s Death

The Magistrate:

He fell down. Die of serious head injury. He is lucky that he did not burst his head. There was a case where someone jumped down from 5th floor and his brain is all over with his limps twisted. Teoh did not. He is real lucky to have nothing broken, accept head injury that caused death.

The Royal Commission:

Yes, the MACC violate human rights. We have sent warning letter to them.

The Royal Police:

He dealt with the gangsters before. The gangsters went into the building of MACC and threw him down. We will be searching for the responsible gangsters.

--Case Close--

A Sad Joke

Q: Why the Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC) can't solve any case?

A: Because their witnesses will some how fall out from the window of the 14th floor.

Q: How many nice young man, with bright future, has parents, wife, baby, family, friends, etc like him have to die before we, Malaysian, realize that we need a change, seriously? How hard is it to lift ourselves up for a change?

A: When someone in our family being thrown down from the window at 14th floor by the authority.

Heaven or Hell?

When you were in a coma, god gives you a chance to choose whether you want to be in heaven or hell when your time comes.

God took you to hell. You found out that hell is helluva place where people having serious competition just to stay comfortable, forcing others to struggle so that they don’t have to, work hard and kill for food, mix with a group of people so that you got protected, live under a law so that you are safe, forced to cheat, sacrifice, drilled yourself to be more competitive, have fun yourself and ignore others, stay incomplete, work like a dog, fall in love and get hurt, always hungry for something, have limited time before you get into more torture, etc.

Then god brings you to heaven to find out an empty space with unlimited time and nothing to do, probably forever. You don’t get hungry, no emotional event, entertainment, food, nothing.

You ask god why there are only a few people in heaven, while hell is so crowded. God said he loves everyone and give everyone a choice regardless of what they did in life. But most of them chose hell.

“Why?” you asked.

“Because there is no hope in heaven, you’ll probably stuck there forever. While in hell, there are plenty of hopes in almost everything. It gives them a purpose, and thus making it interesting.”

Heaven or hell, which will you choose?

The Departures

In the movie The Departures, there is a scene that reminds me of what life is.

In a river where the stream is strong, there are fish that tries to swim against it. Meanwhile, there are fish that died trying to swim against the stream flow pass. All fish died trying to swim against the stream but they still do it.

Isn’t this sad? How far different is it from our life?

Either we swim against the stream to see how far we can reach in life; or we let the stream take us. We all die at the end. What is the difference?

We work hard so that we can die rich? Or we do nothing and die poor? Is there any different in the end? The only different is choice. A or B. There are no right and wrong.

The Weather Man

I’ve just watch, The Weather Man, Starring Nicholas Cage and Michael Caine. Here is something I learned and I wish to share:

1. To get anything in value, you have to scarifice.

2. Do you know that the hard thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing?

3. Nothing that has meaning is easy. Easy doesn’t enter into grown up life.

4. This shit life, we must chuck something. We must chuck them, in this shit life.

Life doesn’t always appear as we wished. Maybe we should throw that life we imagine away.

Self, Feelings and Emotions

Have you ever wonder how many self inside you? You probably think I am mad asking this question. I found this answer after finding where is my heart actually locate. Yes, heart. Not that heart in my chest but that heart that stores all my feeling.

1. First and foremost, our body, which allowed us to be seen like a human in the world. This self is lead by our physical pumping heart. This is our basic self, our being.

2. You probably realize we remember things. But you do not realize that it is independent. You can’t just remember something or forget something. You have to convince someone inside you to store it or keep it deep inside. That is our second self at work.

3. Do you realize that whatever decision we want to make, there will be an argument in our head. Some people call them little voices or whisper. Two of them always disagree and debate based on information from our 2nd self.

4. Whatever the argument going on inside, both self won’t come out with a solution. They need another self to solve it, to make a decision. This is our fifth self. The real you working.

5. Everyone imagine things. In fact, whatever we do, we have to be clear in our mind what we are doing before we really do it. This including our self. We imagine our ideal self before we show to others. The ideal self is the sixth self.

6. The last self is the one people have in mind. In other words, impression. You might try very hard to project your ideal self to the world. But that impression of you in each and everyone’s mind will not be the one you have in mind. They might be close. But it is just not the same.

This is my answer. There are 7 of every person.

Where do we store our feelings? We did not store them. We only store the experience in our memory (2nd self above). It is our debaters (3rd and 4th self) that create the emotion after their debate. This is the reason why our emotions or feelings are different when we have the same experience. When the debaters have the same debate, we have the same feelings; when the facts in the debates are different, we have new feelings.

Freedom!

Freedom! Freedom! Freedom! Freedom here, freedom there... Everybody wants freedom. What is freedom? How much freedom do we actually have?

Once, a person told me sometimes he does what he likes, but most of the time he does what he has to.

Yes, we spend most of our time working for our comfortable living, delicious meal, not knowing that we spend our life on working. Is it worth the sacrifice?

Work like a dog for 10 hours a day, sleep for 5 hours, and 9 hours enjoy. Multiply it by 80 years and we have only 30 years enjoying. Not to mention the un-quality times when you are blur and not having enough sleep or drunk.

What do you do on your free time? Charity? Part-time? Movies? Chat with friends? Or get drunk? To be honest, these are roughly how we spend our life. What is the purpose (of life)? To reproduce? So that you bring in your children to find answers that you couldn’t find? Did they ask for it? Is it fair for them?

Smart people will say we do things to enjoy life. But for what? Since we are here, we should enjoy? Then why spend most of your time working since you do not enjoy it? I understand that if you do not work like hell, your life would not be as enjoyable. But you spend most of your time working and you said you are enjoying life. Funny...

How much freedom do we have? We can’t just go out and kill that person you hate because the society will not agree with you and will put you in jail for that, even though that person is a serial killer.

You can’t whack a person when you feel like, you can’t eat whatever you want’ you can’t have sex with anyone, you can’t choose your parents, you can’t just do whatever you like. There are rules all around. Just how much freedom do we have?

仇人 與 恩人

大學剛畢業的時候，某電視公司請我去主持個特別節目， 那節目的導播看我文章不錯，又要我兼編劇。 可是當節目做完，領酬勞的時候， 導播不但不給我編劇費， 還扣我一半的主持費。

他把收據交給我說： 『你簽收一千六，但我只能給你八百，因為節目透支了。』

當時沒吭聲，照簽了，心想 【君子報仇，十年不晚。】 後來那導播又找我，我還 【照樣】幫他做了幾次。

後一次，他沒扣我錢，變得對我很客氣， 因為那時我被電視公司的新聞部看上， 一下子成為了電視記者兼新聞主播。

們後來常在公司遇到，他每次笑得都有點尷尬。 我曾經想去告他一狀，可是正如高中那位同學所說， 沒有他我能有今天嗎？

果我當初不忍下一口氣，又能繼續獲得主持的機會嗎？ 機會是他給的，他是我的貴人，他已經知錯，我何必去報復呢？

Changing Religions

I always hate people who ask others to change religion.

The reason is simple, a person believes what he/she supposed to and the result is what he/she is today. If you want this person to change religion, it is almost the same as “if you believe in what I believe, your future would be better than now”, which also means he/she is a loser now when compare to you.

Hello, do you have a crystal ball? I know fortune tellers have. Why doesn’t everyone believe in them? At least they tell us our future, not giving us illusions like god love us, and we suffer in life because god knows why…

Why don’t just leave them alone? They’ll find something to believe in which might be more suitable for them.  

Religious people are spiritual people. They are not sales person who run around telling people to buy a product which will “make their life better”.

Plus, I thought religions strongly against war? Why war amongst other religions? Aren’t you contradict with your believe when you ask others to join you?

Time or Money?

People always says that time is money. This has cause many people to work hard for money.

Is time really equals to money?

If you think it is, I disagree with you.

I think time is all we have in life. How long our life is depends on how much time we have.

Money is something people sacrifice their time to earn. Yes, it is important. It is one of the most important element that determines how we can spend the time we have left.

If you come into a situation to choose between time and money, which will you choose?

Many will choose money because it is a way to secure the next meal.

But I had chose time. Hoping the thing I do in this time I earned will make my life more meaningful and happier in the long run.

Am I nuts?

Patience & Courage

"Knowledge need patience, action need courage. If you have a combination of both, you can be really successful."

-Donald J. Trump-

I think this is so true.

Arrogant people think they are the best and try to suppress others are people who lack patience. They have the courage to take action to show off and suppress others. But they lack the knowledge to maintain their success.

Most intellectuals do not get far in life because they do not have the courage to take responsible on their failure. They are so afraid of failure that they do not take any action.

误会

早年在美国阿拉斯加地方，有一对年轻人结婚，婚後生育，他的太太因难产而死，遗下一孩子。 　　

他忙生活，又忙於看家，因没有人帮忙看孩子，就训练一只狗，那狗聪明听话，能照顾小孩，咬著奶瓶喂奶给孩子喝，抚养孩子。 　　

有一天，主人出门去了，叫它照顾孩子。 　　

他到了别的乡村，因遇大雪，当日不能回来。第二天才赶回家，狗立即闻声出来迎接主人。他把房门开一看，到处是血，抬头一望，床上也是血，孩子不见了，狗在身边，满口也是血，主人发现这种情形，以为狗性发作，把孩子吃掉了，大怒之下，拿起刀来向著狗头一劈，把狗杀死了。 　　

之後，忽然听到孩子的声音，又见他从床下爬了出来，於是抱起孩子；虽然身上有血，但并未受伤。 　　

他很奇怪，不知究竟是怎么一回事，再看看狗身，腿上的肉没有了，旁边有一只狼，口里还咬著狗的肉；狗救了小主人，却被主人误杀了，这真是天下最令人惊奇的误会。 　　

注：误会的事，是人往往在不了解、无理智、无耐心、缺少思考、未能多方体谅对方，反省自己，感情极为冲动的情况之下所发生。 　　

误会一开始，即一直只想到对方的千错万错；因此，会使误会越陷越深，弄到不可收拾的地步，人对无知的动物小狗发生误会，尚且会有如此可怕严重的後果，这样人与人之间的误会，则其後果更是难以想像。

New Beginnings

Sometimes life appears to be the end, but what it really means is a new beginning.

This is what I am experiencing, currently.

The Bucket Theory

The Bucket Theory is a management or teamwork theory. A bucket can only fill with the volume of water the shortest plank allows.

In olden days, buckets are made of wooden planks tied together. Once the load of the bucket reached the shortest plank, it will flow out.

The same is like a team. No matter how good the team members are, their quality of work will be just as good as the weakest one. Therefore, the leader must quickly find out the weakest member in the team and train the person up.

This is same as in managing a company. A company needs different department to run. And its quality will be as good as the weakest department. The senior manager should find out which department is the weakest and boost its quality.

In a company, there are departments that often being overlooked and some departments being too emphasis upon. This might be the reason why a company could not expand even though a lot of effort had been put. Meanwhile, this might also be the same reason that brings the company into closing down.

挑水别忘了挖井

有两个和尚分别住在相邻的两座山上的庙里。两山之间有一条溪，两个和尚每天都会在同一时间下山去溪边挑水。久而久之，他们便成为好朋友了。

弹指一挥间，不知不觉，时间在每天挑水中，一晃就是五个春秋。

忽然有一天，左边这座山的和尚没有下山挑水，右边那座山的和尚心想：“他大概睡过头了。”便不以为意。哪知第二天，左边这座山的和尚，还是没有下山挑水，第三天也一样，过了一个星期，还是一样。直到过了一个月，右边那座山的和尚，终于按耐不住了。他心想：“我的朋友可能生病了，我要过去探望他，看看能帮上什么忙。”于是他便爬上了左边这座山去探望他的老朋友。

等他到达左边这座山的庙看到他的老友之后，大吃一惊。因为他的老友正在庙前打太极拳，一点也不像一个月没喝水的人。他好奇地问：“你已经一个月没有下山挑水了，难道你可以不用喝水吗？”左边这座山的和尚说：“来来来，我带你去看看。”于是，他带着右边那座山的和尚走到庙的后院，指着一口井说：“这五年来，我每天做完功课后，都会抽空挖这口井。虽然我们现在年轻力壮，尚能自己挑水喝，倘若有一天我们都年迈走不动时，我们还能指望别人给我们挑水喝吗？所以，即使我有时很忙，但也没有间断过我的挖井计划，能挖多少算多少。如今，终于让我挖出井，我就不必再下山挑水，我可以有更多的时间，来练习我喜欢的太极拳了。”

我们在工作领域上，工作挣薪水就像是挑水；而我们常常会忘记把握下班后的时间，挖一口属于自己的井，培养自己另一方面的实力，给自己多铺一条路。这样在未来当我们年纪大了，即使体力拼不过年轻人时，我们依然还会有水喝，而且还能喝得很悠闲，且源源不断。

企业在经营时，是否也要为自己“挖一口井”呢？培养新人，给未来投资，这何尝不是企业的长远之“井”呀！

多种一块田，就是为自己多留一条路。

Learn

Why do we fall? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.

Why do we have limited lifetime? So that we can learn to appreciate life.

Why do our love ones always break our hearts? So that we can know how important they are to us, compare to how little the expectation from them that break our heart.

Why do we have to give since we earn all our belongings by working very hard? So that we can learn to appreciate what we already have.

Why do people take advantage from us? So that we can learn how to protect ourselves from being cheated.

Why does our life get in danger? So that we can learn how to control a situation we once cannot.

Why people who change the world always being killed? So that we can learn how important these people are to us.

Why do people give up? They do not appreciate the thing they once love anymore.

Why do we lose all our most precious belongings? So that we can learn how to earn them back as we once did.

What if the life we know just vanished over night?

鸟、猫、牛粪

　一隻小鳥正在飛往南方過冬的途中。天氣太冷了，小鳥凍僵了，從天上掉下來，跌在一大片農田裡。它躺在田裡的時候，一隻母牛走了過來，而且拉了一泡屎在它身上。凍僵的小鳥躺在牛屎堆裡，發掘牛糞真是太溫暖了。牛糞讓它慢慢緩過勁兒來了！它躺在那兒，又暖和又開心，不久就開始高興地唱起歌來了。一隻路過的貓聽到了小鳥的歌聲，走過來查個究竟。順著聲音，貓發現了躲在牛糞中的小鳥，非常敏捷地將它刨了出來，並將它給吃了！ 　　

這個故事的寓意是…… 　　

1)不是每個在你身上拉屎的都是你的敵人。 　　

2)不是每個把你從屎堆中拉出來的都是你的朋友。 　　

3)而且，當你陷入深深的屎堆當中(身陷困境)的時候，閉上你的鳥嘴！

Pride

DNAs in all living creatures are similar with ours. Our chromosome is 80% in average similar with animals.

So, the mystery is solved. God did not make us look like him. It seems the other way round. We are the one that think he looks like us.

Why do you think our ancestors bring our level so high up among all creatures, near to god? We might be the intelligent one. We dominate the world. We destroy other people’s religion, which might also be god’s work while claiming it as god’s will. Do you really think all these bring us nearer to god? Or is it further?

The answer is pride. We cannot accept that we are wrong. We have to be right all the time, like we are god himself.

What if god makes animals our ancestors? What is so hard to let go? Is it our pride?

We do not behave like them is what most important. That’s all.

国境之南(海角七号主题曲)

如果海会说话

如果风爱上砂

如果有些想念遗忘在某个长假

我会聆听浪花让风吹过头发

任记忆里的爱情在时间潮汐里喧哗

非得等春天远了夏天才近了

我是在回首时终于懂得

当阳光 再次回到那飘着雨的国境之南

我会试着把

那一年的故事再接下去说完

当阳光 再次离开那太晴朗的国境之南

妳会不会把

妳曾带走的爱在告别前用微笑全归还

海很蓝 星光灿烂

我仍空着我的臂弯

天很宽 在我独自唱歌的夜晚

请原谅我的爱诉说的太缓慢

当阳光 再次回到那飘着雨的国境之南

我会试着把那一年的故事再接下去说完

当阳光 再次离开那太晴朗的国境之南

妳会不会把妳曾带走的爱在告别前用微笑全归还

Vanished

One morning, when you wake up, you found yourself lying on a garden near to your house. You feel very strange because you remember sleeping at home on your bed last night. Your parents even wished you good night.

You walk back to your home, feeling creepy. When you almost reach, you see from far that your house is old and empty. You could not believe it. It is like the property has been abandoned for years.

You ask your neighbor what happen. Your neighbor, which used to attend your birthday parties, look at you with suspicious sight, told you that the house has been abandoned since its owner died in a car crash 20 years ago.

Something hit your mind at that moment. You remember there was an accident 20 years ago but you could not remember what happen next. All you can see is you go to school, make friends, graduate, get a job… as normal as it seems.

You borrow your neighbor’s phone, couldn’t believe the reality, and try to call your parents. “The number you have dialed, is not in service,” is what you get in return.

You go to your office, in horror, wondering if this is a dream. Your colleagues refuse to open the door for you. You know who they are but none of them see you before.

Worrying that they might call the police, you walk back down the street. Every thing seems normal, as yesterday. But all of them do not seem to have any connection with you, as if you have just arrived this morning into earth. It seems that you are a stranger in you own, familiar world.

A clear picture formed in your mind. You do not want to accept it. You saw your life vanished over one night. A voice speaks softly in your ear, as if it is god himself, “This is the reality, the past is just an illusion.”

What will you do?

Comparison also Creates Conflicts

People like to compare. They compare their skills, personality, belongings, assets, appearance, siblings, partners, parents…

Aren’t every individual is separated and different? What is there to compare?

E.g. this bread is not as beautiful as a ring.

Of course, it is a bread not a ring…Duh!

Some people are worst. They are slidely successful than the beginers and thought every decent human in the world should be like them.

These human will then ordered people to walk their path, insult people that do not do as they say, create a “gang”, criticise others that does better than them, etc.

These are the people that do not respect different individual. They love loyal “dogs” that always do what they ordered.

第七封

友子，我已经平安著陆

七天的航行

我终於踩上我战后残破的土地

可是我却开始思念海洋

这海洋为何总是站在

希望和灭绝的两个极端

这是我的最后一封信

待会我就会把信寄出去

这容不下爱情的海洋

至少还容得下相思吧！

友子，我的相思你一定要收到

这样你才会原谅我一点点

我想我会把你放在我心里一辈子

就算娶妻、生子

在人生重要的转折点上

一定会浮现…

你提著笨重的行李逃家

在遣返的人潮中，你孤单地站著

你戴著那顶…

存了好久的钱才买来的白色针织帽

是为了让我能在人群中发现你吧！

我看见了…我看见了…

你安静不动地站著

你像七月的烈日

让我不敢再多看你一眼

你站得如此安静

我刻意冰凉的心，却又顿时燃起

我伤心，又不敢让遗憾流露

我心里嘀咕，嘴巴却一声不吭

我知道，思念这庸俗的字眼

将如阳光下的黑影

我逃他追…我追他逃…

一辈子

我会假装你忘了我

假装你将你我的过往

像候鸟一般从记忆中迁徙

假装你已走过寒冬迎接春天

我会假装…

一直到自以为一切都是真的！

然后…

祝你一生永远幸福！

God, Heaven and Apple

My grandma (from my father side) had past away, a couple of days ago. Many thoughts came to me during the melancholy funeral.

A part from refreshing the memory with my grandma, I began to wonder why we get in to this world in the first place. It’s not like I could take away all the money and luxury with me when I am done here. I even doubt if there is such thing as heaven.

If there is a heaven, I would hope that I will not be there. There will always be trouble when you deal with people. I really doubt if heaven is an excluded place. Yes, only good people go to heaven. But I have seen good people turned bad. What if heaven have certain percentage of bad people in it? Isn’t it going to bring heaven down to the same level as this world?

That is why I do not believe that we are here to make a path to heaven. Sometimes I even think that heaven is created by fools (not god) because it will be the same place as our world here. How god could make such useless place? Aren’t we insulting god’s intelligent when we said good people go to heaven?

Otherwise why are we here for? To get married and reproduce? This will only prove that Darwin is damn right, which we are here to survive. Those that can best adapt into the world live. (I kind of agree with him.)

If you are waiting for an answer from me, I am sorry, I do not have it. All I can tell you is we chose to come into this world; we have to find why we made the decision, as why Adam ate the apple that is forbidden millions of years ago; why god created the apple that is going to be forbidden? Is the apple created by god or did Adam created it himself, just to experience the luxury of it?

第六封

海上气温16度

风速12节、水深97米

已经看见了几只海鸟

预计明天入夜前我们即将登陆

友子…

我把我在台湾的相簿都留给你

就寄放在你母亲那儿

但我偷了其中一张

是你在海边玩水的那张

照片里的海没风也没雨

照片里的你，笑得就像在天堂

不管你的未来将属於谁

谁都配不上你

原本以为我能将美好回忆妥善打包

到头来却发现我能携走的只有虚无

我真的很想你！

啊，彩虹！

但愿这彩虹的两端

足以跨过海洋，连结我和你

The Gray Area between Science and Religion

Since the beginning of time, spirituality and religion have been called on to fill in the gaps that science did not understand. The rising and setting of the sun was once attributed to Helios and a flaming chariot. Earthquakes and tidal waves were the wrath of Poseidon. Science has now proven to be false idols. Science has now provided answers to almost every question man can ask. There are only a few questions left, and they are the esoteric ones, such as where do we come from? What are we doing here? What is the meaning of life and the universe?

Science and religion are not at odds. Science is simply too young to understand.

- a few lines from Dan Brown’s Angels and Demons -

第五封

天亮了，但又有何关系

反正日光总是带来浓雾

黎明前的一段恍惚

我见到了日后的你韶华已逝

日后的我发秃眼垂

晨雾如飘雪，覆盖了我额上的皱纹

骄阳如烈焰，焚枯了你秀发的乌黑

你我心中最后一点余热完全凋零

友子…

请原谅我这身无用的躯体

What a Shirt Reminds Me

This morning when I wanted to iron my shirt before going to work, I find my shirt quite straight that it almost no needs to be ironed. I am pretty sure of this because it is our family culture that everyone irons their own clothes.

This made me recall that I had ironed it the last time I wear it. After that, it had gone through the washing machine and then dried under the sun. This process will wrinkle the shirt a little.

What if I did not iron the shirt the last time? It will not be as straight as now and I will not wear it out to meet people. But now it is different. If I am in a rush, I can just put it on and go. I got this advantage because I have ironed it the last time I wore it.

This might be a boring finding but it does reminds me that what we do in the past results in the present and what we do now will determine our future.

第四封

十二月的海总是带著愤怒

我承受著耻辱和悔恨的臭味

陪同不安静地晃荡

不明白我到底是归乡

还是离乡！

傍晚，已经进入了日本海

白天我头痛欲裂

可恨的浓雾

阻挡了我一整个白天的视线

而现在的星光真美

记得你才是中学一年级小女生时

就胆敢以天狗食月的农村传说

来挑战我月蚀的天文理论吗？

再说一件不怕你挑战的理论

你知道我们现在所看到的星光

是自几亿光年远的星球上

所发射过来的吗？

哇，几亿光年发射出来的光

我们现在才看到

几亿光年的台湾岛和日本岛

又是什麼样子呢？

山还是山，海还是海

却不见了人

我想再多看几眼星空

在这什麼都善变的人世间里

我想看一下永恒

遇见了要往台湾避冬的乌鱼群

我把对你的相思寄放在其中的一只

希望你的渔人父亲可以捕获

友子，尽管他的气味辛酸

你也一定要尝一口

你会明白…

我不是抛弃你，我是舍不得你

我在众人熟睡的甲板上反覆低喃

我不是抛弃你，我是舍不得你

Progress

After a few rounds, I started to wonder why everyone gives the same respond. This started to bore me up.

At first I accepted older people saying that this is life, it is meant to be like this.

But then I realize that the respond people gave is based upon the action I projected.

I, actually, can change my action if I want a different respond. The name for this process is called ‘progress’.

I begin to believe that everything in life has a cause. It won’t just happen for no reason and no, it is not life. It is more like we choose to let it happen because we are afraid of progress, while hiding our cowardness behind the reason “destiny”.

第三封

友子

才几天的航行

海风所带来的哭声已让我苍老许多

我不愿离开甲板，也不愿睡觉

我心里已经做好盘算

一旦让我著陆

我将一辈子不愿再看见大海

海风啊，为何总是带来哭声呢？

爱人哭、嫁人哭、生孩子哭

想著你未来可能的幸福我总是会哭

只是我的泪水

总是在涌出前就被海风吹乾

涌不出泪水的哭泣，让我更苍老了

可恶的风

可恶的月光

可恶的海

Choice of the Rock

Have you ever wonder how long a rock beside the road remains in a rock form when compare to human in human form?

Have you ever wonder how long dripping water takes to get through a rock when compare to human? It took years for a rock but it only needs a few drops to make a human move away.

Have you ever wondered why rocks do not need intelligent while human needs it? Aren’t both in the same world?

Have you ever wondered why rocks live longer than human although human are far smarter and more powerful?

Have you ever wonder why the rock chose to live longer period but without intelligence; and why human chose to live much shorter period with intelligent and power?

The question is why rock chose this life package while human chose the others? We already made the choice. We are here to know why.

第二封

第三天

该怎麼克制自己不去想你

你是南方艳阳下成长的学生

我是从飘雪的北方渡洋过海的老师

我们是这麼的不同

为何却会如此的相爱

我怀念艳阳…我怀念热风…

我犹有记忆你被红蚁惹毛的样子

我知道我不该嘲笑你

但你踩著红蚁的样子真美

像踩著一种奇幻的舞步

愤怒、强烈又带著轻挑的嬉笑…

友子，我就是那时爱上你的…

多希望这时有暴风

把我淹没在这台湾与日本间的海域

这样我就不必为了我的懦弱负责

Choice and Consequences

John is born in a poor family. His mom and dad is a normal factory worker. So, John grew up and decided to work in the factory. He chooses that way because that is the only thing he knows to do.

Jack is born in a poor family, too. His parents work in the same factory as John’s parents, and receive the same salary and position. Jack is a rich man now with a successful company running under him, earning him millions a year. He chooses that way because he thought working as a worker only makes his boss richer.

Jason is born in a poor family with his parents work together with John and Jack’s parents. Jason is a rich man, as well, as he is a politician. He chooses to be a politician because he thinks being controlled by others is the main reason that causes a miserable life. So, he learned to manipulate people in order to get him into power, even though he has to sacrifice innocence to keep him in power.

Will god choose to let…

1. Some new laws being passed by the government that all the poor will be a slave with no right.

2. Some communist government takes over and everyone has to split their assets.

3. The people decided to clean up the corrupted government.

4. A huge rock hit the earth and destroys everything.

5. All three of them will live a good life and die of old age.

If you have god’s power, which will you choose? (Think carefully of the consequences.)

第一封

一九四五年十二月二十五日

友子，太阳已经完全没入了海面

我真的已经完全看不见台湾岛了

你还站在那里等我吗？

友子

请原谅我这个懦弱的男人

从来不敢承认我们两人的相爱

我甚至已经忘记

我是如何迷上那个不照规定理发

而惹得我大发雷霆的女孩了

友子

你固执不讲理、爱玩爱流行

我却如此受不住的迷恋你

只是好不容易你毕业了

我们却战败了

我是战败国的子民

贵族的骄傲瞬间堕落为犯人的枷

我只是个穷教师

为何要背负一个民族的罪

时代的宿命是时代的罪过

我只是个穷教师

我爱你，却必须放弃你

Love Between Religions

Jane falls in love with Jake who believes in different religion. Both religions are well known religions which have millions of followers around the world.

Jane believes that her religion has a very well believe system that can nurture both self and brings the world to peace.

Jake has an opinion that his god can only bless families which each member believe the same god. This tradition has been practiced for thousands of years and it is very true so far.

Yet both of them did not choose the religion themselves. They are born in the family with different religion.

Both of them, after years of trying, separated. Yet, they still missed each other, still talk to each other through phone every night, but don’t have solution. What do you think their future will be? They will end their life unable to live with their only love.

To be true, both of them are only one of the many true-love couples in the world in thousands of years since religion is invented.

Pathetic, isn’t it?

Let’s not think which religions are truer. Do you think this is what god wanted?

Isn’t god want all human to be happy?

If god only blesses those that believe in him, isn’t that brings him down to human level, which we call selfish?

Isn’t god will love everyone, and wish every single person he creates happy, whether he/she believes in him or not?

If Jake and Jane cannot love each other and be happy, how can they fulfill god’s wish, which is to live happy.

Did god wish them to be separated, because both of them believe in him, only in different way?

Maybe (just maybe) Jake and Jane case is a way god want his creations to solve this believe system problem, which had failed even though after thousands of years.

The Waiting

Galileo did not wait for the apple to drop on his head to discover gravitational force.

Isaac Newton did not wait for his force equation to appear after the apple fell on his head.

Einstein did not wait for high technology that can disperse laser when he invented it.

Hawking did not wait for a spaceship powerful enough to take him far in to the space so that he can explain The Black Hole. What are you waiting for?

Contradict Function of Emotion

We help the unfortunate, stand for justice and believe in things more important than our life because we have emotion. Our emotion connects to the unfortunate’s emotion and drives us do things we never thought we could.

We often curse those who do not admit their mistakes while letting their mistakes victimize life of innocence. Our emotion connects to the victim’s emotion and makes us do things we shouldn’t do. This will brought us deep down in dept of sin.

What have emotion brought us? A more interesting life with suffer in return?

What if we do not have emotion? Then we will be like robot that only do our duties and follow orders. But robots never do right or wrong, they only follow orders from the emotional people, which always have the idea of right and wrong, good and bad.

Perhaps we shouldn't have emotion. Perhaps we should replace it with gratitude.

可悲的人

当一个善良的人要离开的时候，我们总是会想尽办法、费尽力气和口水将他多留一阵。

当一个可恶的人要离开的时候，我们总是希望他昨天就已经离开。因为他离开了自己就会比较好过。

人是一种可悲的生物，总是想把昨天的快乐留住，虽然他们非常清楚那是不可能的事。

The Man Who Fish & The Fish

A man is fishing in a pond. Another man told the first man that fishing is a cruel activity because it hurts the fish that tries to fill their stomach.

The first man denies it by saying that only the greedy fish will get harm on fishing. Those down-to-earth fish will not get any wound.

A lady walks up and ask, “What about the intention of the man who fish?”

Aren't the man who fish and the fish that bites the hook have the same intention?

What I am trying to say here is that how can the man accused the fish as he is doing the same thing as the fish? Don't you think that the fish is more honorable that the man? At least the fish did not accuse anyone on its deed.

In the Middle of No Where

One day, a man wakes up and find him on a middle of a road heading to some place he do not know. He look back and sees a thousands yards cliff deep down that if he jumps it will lead him back to where he came from.

He then tries to look pass the road in front, sees where it will lead him. But the road seems endless that he could have died before he reaches the end of it.

Just when he is thinking whether he should step forward to the road, sees what the road have for him or step backward down the cliff to end his life; the land where he is stepping starts to crack. The man has no choice but to step forward to the road or he will end up dead down the cliff.

Aren’t we all born as this man? In the middle of no where, force to step forward while we still not clear where the road leads.

The Blind & the Baby

Once, a captain of a ship hires 20 blinds to work on his ship. He promised the blinds that they were heading a land full of gold.

While in the middle of the sea, the captain died of heart attack.

The blinds got panic. They do not wish for gold or any other benefits anymore. Their lives are now in danger for none of them have any idea when their ship is going to hit something, sink all of them into the dark sea.

Suddenly, they heard a baby crying. It is one of the pregnant blind lady had just gave birth. The blinds, after a deep thought, see hope.

After days of carefully taking-care, they, full of hope, carried the baby to the highest spot of the ship, help the baby high, then try to figure out which direction the baby is suggesting.

What Selling Apples Tells Us?

Jack and Jill went into the same apple farm to pluck apple. Jack will pluck all fresh apples in the farm but Jill plucks apples that are big, red and fresh. Both of them will sell the apple at their stall the next day. Jack’s stall is just next to Jill’s stall at the same crowded location.

Jack went home and rest went with 100 apples.

Jill went home and rest with only 50 apples.

The next day, at Jack’s stall, there is a signboard that writes “fresh from farm apple”. Jack is selling 50 cents for an apple.

Jill’s stall also has a signboard that writes “only fresh and large apple from farm” and smaller but not tiny words “refundable if not fresh”, with 70 cents an apple.

Who creates more impact on you?

Who will you buy from when you want to buy large apple?

Who will you buy from when you just want to buy apple?

Who will you buy from when you want to buy apple as a gift?

Calculate the possibililities of when you want to buy from Jack and when you want to buy from Jill.